Comfortably Numb

I was comfortable in the darkness and never wanted help. I thought I deserved all the abuse and neglect.
How did I get it so wrong where were my teachers? It wasn't their fault. I was numb to any feeling.
Even if they wanted to help and offer me a hand, I won't have taken it because that is who I am.
I suffered in silence and compromised my health. I'm not that girl anymore. I keep repeating to myself. The past is now dead and gone buried like a tulip bulb after summer has gone.
Waiting for winter and the first storm.
The darkness no longer scares me after what I have endured. God is now my co-pilot, I am assured
I am no longer afraid of what is to come,
I'm no longer going through life comfortably numb.